Dear Journal - Week One and Week Two
- Abigail Hampson
- Sep 21, 2019
- 10 min read
In an effort to help publicize my journey through this adventure, I will update a weekly journal with updates from everyday. For this, my weeks will start on Sunday and go to Saturday. You should expect posts every Saturday Evening. Enjoy!
- September 8th 2019 // Sunday -
Its the official beginning of the week! Exciting! But it is also very intimidating. Looking ahead at the incoming week I have a lot of plans and obligation. So much is going through my brain, I can't keep up. However, I was able to receive reassurance from my Aunt. She is my community mentor for this project, and it was really nice to be able to sit down and check in with her before I officially start this imposing project.
This week I am going to continue what I have been doing - no dairy and no carbs. I will be adding more solids and more protein. I am very proud of the little progress I have already made. Last wee I did a cleanse - it was hard, and I may have cried, however now I feel so energized and ready to do anything. I will continue with the physical regiment I have designed (Gym 4-5 Days a week, Running in the AM 2-3 Days a Week) and focus on getting comfortable with that.
I discussed a lot with my Aunt, but one of the most important topics we covered today was objectives - what exactly am I using as my objectives for this project. Lets face it, its a BIG sea I am fishing in and I need to find a way to make it a small pond. So I guess my overall objective with this doesn't end with this project, rather and want to find a combination of diet and exercise that works well with my crazy busy schedule. I am very active within my daily life with school, theater, and work that I have always put my physical health on the back burner.
I hope to find something that becomes natural to me, that becomes ingrained within my daily life - where I do not have to think about it. The best way to stay accountable to myself is if I am accountable to other people as well. So this blog is a way to stay true and progressing within my goals.
Here goes nothing, wish me luck
-A
- September 9th 2019 // Monday -
School Today was eh. I went walking this morning with my mom at a public track before school though. It was cold and slightly dark out still - on the bright side we saw TWO shooting stars, the kind you wish on. I ended up not completing an entire mile, but I still felt great just by doing something outside in the fresh air. It was really refreshing. I am finding that having that time in the morning to really focus on the day and get fresh air is waking me up and getting me more energized to take on the day.
I also went to the Gym this afternoon, so like GO ABBY. Am I right??!! I am proud that I did that. Maybe those shooting stars were magic? I still have a bunch of energy. However, if I am being honest - I am dreading the moment that I crash. Every Up has a Down, therefore if I am feeling this good when will I feel bad. So I am sitting on a bunch of anticipation for the draw back. I`m just waiting.
I like tea. I never used to like Tea but now I find a liking for it. Green Tea. Black Tea. Lemmon Tea. Yummy!
So overall feelings - refreshed and ready to gulp down that tea!
- A
- September 10th 2019 // Tuesday -
So went walking again and I feel like I am on top of the world. Will I feel this every time? Could I? I really hope I will. I have so much energy and I am so ready for this. I am paying attention in classes. and I have noticed that I am eating less.
I used to eat a lot of food. I was the definition of someone who grazes. But now I am not like that. Although, I have been reading certain studies that say that eating a little bit here and there is better than three big meals. I think I am going to look into this more and maybe change my diet depending on what I find out.
So over-eating or under-eating, I think I am in the healthy part of just eating. I am able to walk up the stairs without getting out of breath and I am not ravenous when I go home for lunch - just ready to eat.
I still love food though.
- A
- September 11th 2019 // Wednesday -
Auditions were today. I was stressed and I ate a TON of berries. Like a TON. I was stressed. and I drank two iced teas. Let me just say I was really stressed. I was also anxious. I spent extra time at the Gym after the auditions just to burn that extra anxiety off. I also ate like two Salads today. I really love salads - like a lot.
Overall I think that the Gym did help, but its almost like I wanted more. I wanted to just keep going until I felt calm again. However, it did not help as much as desired.
I am hoping that I get the call backs tommorrow - but I will need to take extra time in the morning to run and walk and get calmed for the day ahead.
Good Luck to Me!
- A
- September 12th 2019 // Thursday -
Callbacks were cancelled. I got the part I wanted! Turns out that extra time I put in this morning was useful. Maybe I still had some of that shooting star magic as well. I kinda wanted to go to the Gym this afternoon because I was exstatic. However, My mother doesnt let me go alone. My brother did not want to go - so I resigned myself to a fast walk around the neighborhood.
Overall I feel like I am still doing very well and I feel healthy. I feel like there is almost nothing I can't do. That being -- Going to the gym *eyeroll* .
Excited and ready for the journey - it will be hard but maybe I am ready.
- A
- September 13th 2019 // Friday -
Rehearsal went really late. So my mother didn't want to wait any longer and I had to skip the gym. Thats not even the worse thing that happened today. I was tempted.
I went over my friends house to sleepover and he had a campfire. Naturally, they had s`mores and I couldnt have them. It took a lot to not cave. But I am proud to say I stayed strong. I think what helped was the dinner his mother made - Sausage and Veggies roasted and sautaed and just damn right delicious.
I must admit I miss the Gym and I feel bad about not going. But I am looking at today as a success because I did not cave and eat those devilishly delicious smelling s`mores.
S`more Please!
- A
- September 14th 2019 // Saturday -
Whelp. I didn't go to the gym today. Oof. Big Oof. But I think something that I did that is a success was the fact that I did my own grocery shopping. YAY! My mother let me get what I wanted to eat for the week so I could stick with my diet. So I got lots of fruits and different types of protein. Overall I think that I lacked in determination in termws of the gym but I made up for it in the shopping for food catagory. So score. I miss the gym though.
I really miss the gym... is that weird?
- A
- September 15th 2019 // Sunday -
I met with my Aunt again today. It was refreashing. I am ready for this week. But first I need to say I ate breakfast out with my parents and my sister and her kids this morning. I felt gross afterwards. It was greasy.
I guess soemthing I should mention is that food prep is best. You have no idea how people at resteraunts cook their food or how they prepare it. A brilliant example is that today at Dunkins with my Aunt during our meeting she got a powerbreakfast sandwhich. BUT they gave her double the buns. They SABOTAGED her meal.
So food prep is a yay and eating out is a prob nay.
-A
- September 16th 2019 // Monday -
I started rehearsals for Drama Club at High school today. I got casted as Abby in the play Arsenic and Old Lace. Which means that I will be having rehearsals three to four times a week. So how exactly do I balance everything I am doing? I don't know. But I do know that I can do this.
Its not so uch the diet I am having issueswith, its the finding time to go to the gym - reguralalry. Due to the fact that the Gym I use is 15 mins away - depending on traffic I have to plan that extra 15 both ways when I go. although I only stay for an hour roughly, doing 30 mins on the treadmill/eliptical and the other 30 using a cureves setup - its still a lengthy drive back home.
I also should bring up the point that my Mother does not want me going to the Gym alone - which I get, but this means I have to go with her when she can make it. This week she has many late nights and I dont know how the getting -to -the gym will work. But we will see.
Overall, today I had a good day. I went walking in the morning with my Mom and I stayed within my diet. I really miss Coffee over anything. So maybe I will add that next week and see how I end up feeling.
Don't worry I got this.
-A
- September 17th 2019 // Tuesday -
"Run Forest Run"
That is exactly what I hear at 5 am when I roll out of bed and shimmie into something warm enough yet flexible enough to go to the track in. So there I went and I enjoyed every minutes. I enjoy the social aspect of running with my best friend. We talk and run and walk and laugh. It makes the time fly by. Although today we were ambushed by kids from my school that participate in cross country.
Their early morning meetings have begun - therefore I need to look for another place to run. I am not in a pace mentally where running and walking while I jiggle in front of people who dont is a good idea. I am an over emotional person. I know that and I know my limits. Currectly this is one of the limits. I am hoping to overcome this and be truly comfortable in my own skin - in front of everyone and anyone.
I will get there - I am positive!
- A
- September 18th 2019 // Wednesday -
Drama. Drama. Drama.
No Gym means sad face. But if I am being honest I AM TIRED. I worked last night babysitting for a local Superintedant and I didnt get home until close to 11 pm. I woke up tired, not refreashed and ready. Is this the down side that I was expecting. If it is, I want to cry. I was working so well. So well. I really just want to cry. But maybe thats the lack of proper sleep.
So natural question that follows, do I create a sleep schedule and regimit that I follow and see what happens then? I have never been a really good sleeper in the sense of a regular schedule. You see I tend to wake up early and go to bed early. BUT not if I get into a book series - then all bets are off.
I didn't end up doing any physical thing. And I don't know how I feel. Almost bulky and slow. Like I have a heavy liquid flowing through my veins.
Also something that has come up within my inner monologue lately, has been what am I going to do during Tech week. Tech week is the week leading up to a performance. Usually parents provide meals and they are very carb heavy and not very healthy. Does that mean that I have to provide my own meals? I am fine with that, but I just don't know if I will have the time.
Busy Busy Busy Like a Bee.
- A
- September 19th 2019 // Thursday -
Honestly, I enjoy my morning run/walk with my friend Sam. I love it. Its almost like morning meditation. But like with exercise as well -- The Best of BOTH worlds. Speaking of meditation. I have been thincking of doing a bit of meditation in the morning, just to get into the right mindset.
I still feel like I am missing something. Is there something I am not doing right? Do I have to look into more workouts and more diets. I have come to the realization that life is busy and life will always be busy. I have to be flexabil but determined. Again I am hoping that trying out meditation my work. We will see.
Mindfulness my Dude!
- A
- September 20th 2019 // Friday -
I feel awful. I havnt gotten to the gym at all this week. WHYYYYYY. I know that life happens, but I feel disapointed in myself for not being able to make it to the gym at all. I guess the important thing to note is that I am getting really discouraged. But I can do this. I can.
I can.
- A
- September 21th 2019 // Saturday -
GUESS WHAT!
GO ON GUESS!!
I got LOCKED out of the gym! LOCKED!
So Yeas I finaly made it to gym, which was a real struggle this week just because of scheduleing and whatnot. But I get there and the door is locked! Now my gym that I use is open 24/7 and members(like me) recieve a scanner key that opens the door. Or should open the doors. However, the Gym must be having trouble with the key reader because this door would not unlock. So I am waiting outside with my mom and trying to get int contact with the person that owns the gym. Then the door opens and out walks a older man. Then we take five minutes trying to figure out if its just our key or everyones key because when he got here the door was open.
It was dramatic. Believe me I know dramatic. So I finally got to the gym and I am so happy. I did mostly arm stuff today but I GOT THERE and I DID IT.
The past two updates were kind of scarce. But now I know that I can do this. Yes there will be times when I feel discouraged and I feel like I just can't do this. But I know I can do this. I can . I can. I can!
Stay Tunned!
- A
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